I’m really proud of myself for how long I have managed to feed Lottie, I didn’t manage to get anywhere near as far with Maisy and Bella but this time I was very determined and it just worked – I love feeling so close and connected with her. That doesn’t mean at times in the early days I didn’t struggle there were moments I couldn’t see us making it to 9 days let alone 9 months! I found breast feeding support groups a god send and thank god for google helping me to find the answers to every little question I had.
(Tip for any new or expecting mums out there’s a site called Kelly mom it’s amazing this was literally my bible in those early days!)
But now we’re 9 months in I have a new question.
When do we stop?
More importantly – how do we stop?
I left her for a day to attend blogfest last weekend and by the end of the day I was seriously uncomfortable, poor little girl was asleep when I got back but I desperately needed some relief so woke her up for a feed.
She has three meals a day and has recently accepted the odd bottle here and there but at night in particularly she’s still a boob monster – this is probably why she has never slept though the night and why she seems to end up in my bed every single night. Its more for comfort now I think than actually being hungry but my god with the other two being such early risers I really could do with that full night of sleep!
I feel completely selfish even thinking about trying to cut down and phase it out she still a baby but at the moment I’m kind of just being used as a dummy.
Is it wrong that I crave a little bit of my social life back as well?
I’m not a big drinker but it would be lovely to meet some friends for a few glasses of wine or head out for a few hours knowing with out being worried stiff she’ll be screaming for a feed.
Then on the other hand I think I’ll feel really sad not to feed her anymore, its a sign she’s growing up and doesn’t need me so much. Ryan’s very adamant he doesn’t want any more children so she will be my last little baby (sobs) I want to keep her a baby for as long as possible!
Is there a right time to stop?
When will I know?
Would love to hear others stories from mums who have been or are in a similar position and how you knew when it was the right time to stop..