I’m Not Ready..

I received a letter through the door last week informing me I need to apply for Lottie’s school place for next year. I almost choked when I read it. Although I knew it would come..

I am just not ready. 

The thought of my youngest girl going off to school actually breaks my heart.

I didn’t have this feeling with Maisy and Bella, they were the big sisters and more than ready for their big school adventure.

Lottie is my baby; she’s so dinky still and despite telling me all the time she is a big girl I can’t bare the thought of it.

Maisy and Bella starting school were of corse huge day’s for us all but it was a day of excitement, they couldn’t wait to go and make new friends and I could’t wait to hear all about what they had been up to.

I feel almost bad that I don’t have that excitement for Lottie but seeing that letter just hit home to me that they’re all growing up so quickly and this time next year I won’t have anyone at home during the week. I won’t have the flexibility that nursery gives me and I won’t have my little side kick following me around asking for snacks.

I think the thing that does it for me is once they start on this school adventure they won’t come until adulthood and that is frightening to think the next time they won’t be confined to term times and school runs they will be all grown up.

For now I shall fill out the application, try not to think about it and just make the most of the extra day’s I have at home with Lottie. I am sure come summer she will be ready but right now I’m not.


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.

CommentLuv badge

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.


  1. September 17, 2017 / 12:10 pm

    Aww a new chapter will start for all of you. I know what you mean though x
    Lisa recently posted…Jam Heart Biscuit RecipeMy Profile

    • Amy
      September 21, 2017 / 2:40 pm

      Yeah it will be so strange but I am sure she will be fine when it comes to it! x

  2. September 23, 2017 / 9:08 pm

    IT really does come around far too quickly doesn’t it? I have to apply for Macsen’s school place and Enfys’ nursery place. Then I’ll have 3 in full time school, 1 in nursery and 1 at home with me. :'(

  3. September 28, 2017 / 11:55 pm

    Oh I totally relate. I will soon need to do the school application for my youngest of three who will start next September. I found it difficult when the other two started – but I still had other children home with me. When he goes, I will have no one left! Like you say that is it until they leave school at 18! Just got to make the most of the school holidays! x
    Cardiff Mummy Says – Cathryn recently posted…I didn’t realise having primary school aged children would be so exhausting!My Profile

Pin It on Pinterest