So in my last week in pictures I mentioned I was having a little bit of a shitty time and to be honest looking back on it from a much happier place – it was my own fault. I was feeling like crap because for too long I’ve been letting negative people stay in my life who then have a negative impact on me.
I try to always see the good in people and remain positive but there does come a point when the light comes on and you see that they do nothing but bring you down and deflate your mood. It doesn’t necessarily mean that they are a bad person but there clearly is something wrong with the relationship you have with them. I am a trier, I try and talk things through, I try and express my feelings and come to a resolution but when it’s one sided there isn’t really much room to move forward.
In the last few weeks I’ve snapped a few times and just said enough is enough – these people wont change and why should they I wouldn’t change for someone else either. But I don’t have to accept it, I have three children and I run a business when I am in a bad mood I do it all in a half arsed way – guilty. I let things get to me and bring me down; I am not someone who can just let it go over my head, I carry stress with me which isn’t good for anyone it was making me feel ill, constant tension head aches and even a bout of tonsillitis!
So I was selfish, I put myself first and I just detached from that negativity which was bringing me down. It’s not about giving up or cutting people from my life I just need to not have that strain on me right now and I wont feel bad for that. It needn’t be done in a big dramatic way either I’ve just stopped engaging in it, I’ve stopped trying to fix something that is broken, I need to focus first and foremost on whats important to me, that’s my girls and making them happy is a hell of a lot easier when I am happy myself.
Positivity breads positivity; some people think this is just zen hippy BS but I tell you what it’s bloody true when you remove those that hold you back you can shine and make room for good things and people you deserve.
I’m off to meditate now and plant a tree of happiness catch you later – peace and love. Oh look I haven’t lost the sarcasm along the way;) thankgod!