My whole life I have been a real over thinker, I sit and let the same thoughts go round and round in my head getting myself worked up and one of the biggest thoughts and concerns is always what will other people think.
When I found out I was expecting Lottie – yes my third child aged 21, I was terrified not at the thought of pregnancy, labour and not and the prospect of another child to juggle, no I was more concerned with what others would think about it. Would I be judged? Would people talk behind my back?
I shared my concern’s with close friends and family who all said the same thing “why do you care?” Anyone whose opinion actually mattered to me would support us whether it was our third or fifth child, but I just couldn’t shake the feeling – I wasn’t ashamed, I was over the moon I’ve always wanted a big family but it’s left me feeling like I always need to prove a point:
I can do this by myself
I don’t need your help
When in reality all parents at some point need a little help and I’m starting to see that now – no one who knows me would judge if I dare have an evening off and head off out with the girls, no one will care if they come over and the breakfast dishes still aren’t done and if they do well quite frankly I now know I honestly don’t care!
I’ve spent far too much time in the past worrying about the small thing’s that really shouldn’t matter, realising this has made such a big difference it feels like a weight has been lifted I have enough to do each day keeping my three little princesses happy with out trying to please everyone else.
I’ve seen that no matter what you do it won’t suit everyone and that’s okay -I’m happy my children are happy we do what is right for us. What works for one won’t for the other I love the fact that I have three little girls all close in age but I know its not for everyone.