I received a letter through the door last week informing me I need to apply for Lottie’s school place for next year. I almost choked when I read it. Although I knew it would come..
I am just not ready.
The thought of my youngest girl going off to school actually breaks my heart.
I didn’t have this feeling with Maisy and Bella, they were the big sisters and more than ready for their big school adventure.
Lottie is my baby; she’s so dinky still and despite telling me all the time she is a big girl I can’t bare the thought of it.
Maisy and Bella starting school were of corse huge day’s for us all but it was a day of excitement, they couldn’t wait to go and make new friends and I could’t wait to hear all about what they had been up to.
I feel almost bad that I don’t have that excitement for Lottie but seeing that letter just hit home to me that they’re all growing up so quickly and this time next year I won’t have anyone at home during the week. I won’t have the flexibility that nursery gives me and I won’t have my little side kick following me around asking for snacks.
I think the thing that does it for me is once they start on this school adventure they won’t come until adulthood and that is frightening to think the next time they won’t be confined to term times and school runs they will be all grown up.
For now I shall fill out the application, try not to think about it and just make the most of the extra day’s I have at home with Lottie. I am sure come summer she will be ready but right now I’m not.